why did everything have to be scheduled for today? i SHOULD be at the studio but i cancelled out on them b/c of the dress fitting for the wedding. i COULD be at an ashanti concert (even though i think she can't sing) that my old coworker invited me to, but i had to flake on him b/c i have to go to the dress fitting. i SHOULD go running tonight b/c jorell doesn't have to work and i don't like running alone and i feel like a fat ass b/c i haven't gone in over a week. and to top it off, i'm bloated.