due to certain events in my life, i've found myself turning to certain male friends of mine for the comfort that i'm looking for. not to say that my female friends don't help - i love them to death - but male friends give that sense of protection like they don't want anyone to hurt you. yeah, that's kinda what i need right now. it's funny b/c ry and i have been talking more than we normally do and it's always the emotional roller coaster incidents that bring us closer together. people wonder how i could still be good friends with my ex, but i knew we became friends for a reason and we were friends before he ever asked me out. not to mention some people were trippin out when he came down a few weekends ago to visit me and stayed at my house with my parents around. wait til i tell them he might come back down again this coming weekend. it's weird b/c regardless of how far he lives he'll still come down to spend time with me and keep me company.

on a lighter note, i'm getting closer and closer to meeting one of my all-time favorite artists --> BRIAN McKNIGHT!!! he was supposed to come into the studio yesterday to record, but something came up. if not this week, maybe next week. what am i gonna wear?!!