why does valentine's day have to exist? it's that one day of the year when people remind each other that they're loved, but instead the whole holiday makes me sad. i remember in gradeschool i used to happily send out valentines to all my classmates until i saw the faces of those who got hardly any. things haven't changed much as i grew older. all the single people would be miserable because they don't have that special someone to celebrate valentine's day with while all the couples bragged about what they did for their girls and what the girls got from their guys. it's like, "look what i got! what did you get?" single's awareness day as kristine would call it. i think part of the reason why i never looked forward to this so called holiday is because i never had a good one. the closest would have been in '95 when i found out that ry had a crush on me. he had a single red rose waiting for me in class on my seat when i arrived plus the cutest card which poured out his feelings for me. talk about letting your guard down. that's pretty much the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for me. the following 2 valentine's after that was nothing but war. muak muak muah...

so then i thought this year is gonna be the year. WRONG! he doesn't believe in the holiday. he says, "why pick one day out of the year to show that you love someone when you should be doing that everyday." so true, but at the same time it still makes me a little sad. everyone around me will be getting flowers, candy, cards, and what not, but for me it'll be another average day.