i went to church tonight and instead of it making me feel good about myself and christmas, it reminded me of the decisions i made in the past. i sat right behind the dad of this guy i used to be dating and i couldn't help but think that he could have potentially been my father-in-law. his family loved me and thought i was "the one". now that i think about it, i don't think it'd be that bad if i hooked up with him. oh well, too late now.