i hate getting myself into the same monotonous rut i always get myself into. i desperately need change in my life. change that will selfishly benefit me. i mean, when was the last time i actually put my wants in front of others? i can honestly say i'm happy and content with my life, but i want to be happier. i'm tired of being the nice person in every situation i get myself into that i finally think it's time i be a bitch. seriously. i'm fed up with it.