i suffer from pms. never in my life has this happened to me. i think it's the effect of the pill. i feel like i'm going psychotic... one moment i'm "peachy", then i'm irritated at everyone around me, then i'm crying... i swear i'm trippin. what scares me is that i can't tell the difference between what i'm trippin over and reality. nothing seems to satisfy these mixed emotions except for an occasional bawling followed by a nap. i'm trying so hard not to take it out on jesse cuz then he would think i'm crazy-psycho-bitch, but all i want from him is a hug. sometimes i just need someone around me but at the moment no one is available. fuck. i hate this. am i gonna be going through this every single damn month?!!!