sandy, are you okay? just reading about your homicidal rage got me all scared for you. i can kinda relate, though (of course, my rage is at a much lower degree compared to yours... hehehe). anyway, i think it's like that with all nice people. nice people will want to do what's best for others, but when you get them pissed off, it's like "run for the hills!" it's funny, cuz i've had people tell me that they'd NEVER want to get on my bad side. funny, cuz they've never even seen it but at the same time are dreading the thought of it. it's pretty much true that when you hold all the little things in over the years they tend to come out 100x worse in the form of violence. i have pretty evil thoughts myself. thank god i don't carry them out!